you won't make yourself a name if you follow the rules

I was googling "quoiromantic" because somebody on Starfriends has that in—okay, I need to figure out Starfriends etiquette for when someone has two pronoun sets in their profile, because I am now totally unsure whether this person is a they or a she; *flips coin*—their profile. (ETA: I asked and the etiquette seems to be that either set works.) And I came across this post on aromanticnerd. Relevant portion (which links elsewhere for further details but that link doornailed):

requiromantic: a label for individuals who experience limited sexual/romantic attraction due to being drained of energy for any variety of reasons. the variety of reasons gets more specific, i know (i believe it’s typically in reference to past abusive relationships or health issues of any sort? other things as well, i’m not the most well versed in this identity)

...is this a real thing? tell me this is a real thing lie if you have to

ETA: fuck it I'm sticking the word in my Starfriends tags. also, I poemed:


"requiromantic, I"

I'd never heard the word before.
And yet it seems to fit:
when romance wanes and waxes by
the strength one has to deal.

Am I aromantic? I—
I fell in love once more
with someone with poetic wit,
but nothing came of it.

I rarely think I should explore
a romance; when I feel
a love begin, I find I'm spry—
this word I think I'll steal.

Talking about Hera on Bacchic Underground, predictably enough as She is the God of the Month for January. (Also it's Gamelion, which is kind of Her month!) And, uh, remember this? (Locked to alexeigynaix access list. Gist is, personal gnosis from Hera followed by divination followed by some months thought, and now my long-term plan includes some greater-than-zero number of kids.)

Now, I've got a lot of work to do in a lot of areas before kids can be a thing in my life, and also a lot of work to do before I'm, like, what are the words I want here, self-possessed maybe? something, anyway, enough to be part of the balance that a relationship between mature adults requires. And partner(s) has to precede kid(s), because I am absolutely not capable of raising a kid on my own. Certainly not on this paycheck!

Let us not discuss the anxiety and whatnot issues that have thus far made it difficult to find someone. There have literally been three people who have expressed romantic interest in me in my life, you know? That I know of, I should say, given I'm probably kind of clueless about this sort of thing, given my usual level of clue in human social interaction. Wait, no, are we counting the guy who asked me to prom? Four. (I didn't go to prom. Couldn't fathom wanting to.) Anyway, they're all men, and I'm a lesbian!

I don't even know if I'm asking for advice or sympathy or just a listening ear. I should, like, plan an offertory/petitionary ritual to Hera and Aphrodite, though.

...

I don't want to go to work. :(

*leaves for work*